Salty, damn man, I feel for you. I don't know what your spousal relationship was like, but I know how I would feel, and it would suck worse than anything ever. As for the sous, take the chance to get yourself some time off, and then maybe a reward for the sous.
Son, if you wrote a book I would read it, seriously. You tell such a great story, even though the living of it has got to suck as well. The part that kicks me the hardest was your heart attack in the midst of it all. You seem very calm, where I certainly would not be.
My truck broke. big whoop. I got a replacement. There's my sob story. HA! You guys just plain rock.