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Ever looked into Hypochondria, psychosomatic effects thereof, and psychological affects thereof?
Seen thousand different reasonings towards trying to free base seeds. Or not really, just snorting your regular coke, you know. Smoking and dropping acid and cracking-freebasing-whatever.
Few are usually attached with medicating. I mean, waouw, how stupid can this sounds, but it's true. Since I mean, medicating physical problems. As for medicating psychological pain, yeah it's all of it. And creating physical affects needed to be remedied out of it. But threathen them with any serious concern for health and they'll coward just like anybody else, until they're not aware enough by then, which IF they are they couldn't post something like you did still. Physically, NOR mentally, couldn't.
Nor is "the feeling of dying" any meaningful if it can get "like 10-20x in intensity" afterwards of being felt like dying. I never felt like dying except two times, and both where unexpected and dire road accidents, one with me at the wheel, one with my friend at it. But I've felt real ****ing bad with health in my life, believe me.
Not judging. I can't care who you are out of KKF, as much as I want to. How could I truthfully? Are these words of magnification, or a true severing from the basic reptilian compelling of staying alive?
I'm glad you have coworkers for sure. I'd like you to get co-unseling. You need to get rid of what it is driving you towards medical anxiety and self destruction so much. It goes beyond drugs. Drugs are what allows you to so freely feel anxiety so much toward any real physical symptom.
Sorry. Like you really. Said it from the onset of my presence here on KKF. So as much as I can't really care what you do out of KKF, if I don't see you around here anymore suddenly, I will feel forever bad somehow. Add me up with seemingly a few concerned members, and suddenly you have a small crowd of concerned people. If it's worth nothing to you, it seems to be worth something to that crowd.